The Bipolar Flu: When Emotions Feel Physical

Even if its “invisible” emotional distress is a type of pain that should be healed like the flu - with rest, supplements, and grace.

Hi and welcome to The Journey Never Ends.

I appreciate you guys being patient with me as I haven't been posting recently.

I have been going through complicated emotions and been journaling about it and

quite honestly felt like I had the flu.

I know that sounds weird,

but really when you go through intense emotions,

they can actually show up in a physical sense for you and affect the way you feel.

So the other day I actually spent 15 hours in bed feeling like I had the flu,

feeling sick because in reality I was sick.

It's like having a common cold,

but the cold is really just your brain and your emotional state being unstable.

I know that sounds weird,

but I give myself grace knowing that I do have a disorder that struggles with consistency.

And I do have a disorder that sometimes makes me feel emotionally sick to my

stomach and just sick in general.

So I urge you guys to just realize that if you're struggling with deep emotions and

you feel sick,

you need to rest.

You need to give yourself space

just as if you had the flu because bipolar disorder is a disorder.

It's a disability.

Don't forget that.

Anyways,

today I wanted to share with you guys a poem that I wrote recently while I was

going through these emotions that highlights the physicality of symptoms that I

incurred during these emotions.

Here we go.

I feel like my head is floating.

And my body is sinking.

My blood is boiling, but my skin is freezing.

So this was just highlighting the fact that I really felt a complex physical

reaction to my emotional experience as I laid in bed for 15 hours.

So I fell off the horse.

I was sick.

I had my bipolar flu, but now I'm back.

Just like if I were to have the flu,

there's a moment where you feel better when you say it's time to clean up all the

tissues I had next to my bed.

It's time to get on the mic again and continue this never ending journey.

So here I am today getting back on the mic.

Here I am today recovered from my episodic emotional bout.

I hope that when you guys go through something emotionally that you realize it can

have physical effects on you and that in many ways you really need to treat it like

the flu.

Give yourself the space to heal your emotions.

Give yourself the space to feel better.

Don't judge yourself because you wouldn't judge yourself if you got the flu.

Move forward.

Remember that the present is where you create the future.

The past is to learn from and the future will be created by your present moment.

And in fact, your future pasts are created presently.

So focus on the present as always.

Realize that sometimes you get sick and you feel it in your bones,

even if it's emotional and it looks like it's invisible.

Give yourself grace.

Don't give yourself judgment and get back on the horse because you have to remember

that this journey never ends.

Move forward,

pledge to life,

do what you need to do today to be as healthy as possible physically,

mentally,

and spiritually.

So take care of yourselves and

And remember, shit happens.

Move forward.

I really appreciate you guys being here and again,

having patience with me as I go through my journey.

I hope you guys have a great day.

Much love.